It's been 24 years today since my sister was by my side. 24 years today since I last saw her face, her smile, heard her laughter or her voice. Where does 24 years go?
Some days it seems just like yesterday we were cruising down the streets looking for boys...well she was looking for boys and making me hide under the seat! She was the model in the family...walking the runways and having the photo shoots...the one with the looks. She was the outgoing fashionista and I was the shy one wearing hand-me-downs and hiding behind my mom. A lot has changed since then believe me.
I miss my sister more and more as I get older. We were 18 months apart and as close as two best friends could be. We were supposed to grow older together. We were supposed to have spa and shopping days and vacations together. We were supposed to talk on the phone for hours together about our days, our husbands and our children. We were supposed to laugh and cry together. We were supposed to have children who could play together. We were supposed to be there no matter what for each other regardless of where we were in our lives. And although I have another fabulous older sister who has become all of these things and more over the last 24 years, I still wonder what our relationship would have grown into over the years since we were closer in age.
But all of that changed in a blink of an eye and she was gone....TOO YOUNG AND TOO SOON. Today as I celebrate her life as I do every year, I want her to know that I have never forgotten her, even after 24 years. I know that she has never really left my side...cheering beside me with all the accomplishments and failures I have made in my life and I know that she will be there forever. And when it is my turn to be welcomed home, I hope it is her that meets me with that same beautiful smile. Until then, I hope with all my heart that she is taking care of my two babies that went home before it was their time and nurturing their hearts like she always did mine.
Thanks Sis for always being by my side. Give Dad a big hug and kiss from me and please if you don't mind can you continue to keep a watchful eye especially at night on Our Sugar Babie for "D" never sleeps and I am not ready to let him come home with you just yet or for a long long time for that matter but knowing that you and his many other angels are by his side, I feel in my heart he will be safe for I know you love him so too.
Loving and Missing you,
Your Little Sis
Kelly
Tears! I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you today as you celebrate your sister's life and remember her with love!
ReplyDeleteWelling-up over here. Thinking of you...she sounds like an amazing sister and friend. xo
ReplyDeleteOh man... crying at this post. So sorry for the loss of your sister, she sounds fabulous. I'm the only girl in my family and always wished for a sister.
ReplyDeleteWow thanks for sharing, so touching, I know with two of my own sisters just how special they are!!
ReplyDeleteOh dear. sigh. so sad what life throws at us. really touching, a sister is a very special bond.
ReplyDeleteThat's so tough. Hope you have family and friends remembering with you today.
ReplyDeleteI lost my older brother when I was 5. He was 9. Even though we were young, I have vivid memories of him, and to this day, I wonder what life would be like if he were still here.
ReplyDeleteI guess that never goes away. Hugging you tight...from one sister left behind to another.