Thankful for...My FAMILY

FAMILY...the ones you live with, laugh with and love.

Here we are...just the three of us...my family.
You have seen pictures already of the two men in my life but never one of me...until now. Yes, that is me...shocking since I said I was never going to show a picture of myself on this blog unless it made me look absolutely gorgeous but who more to make me feel that way then being surrounded by my two best buddies, who I am thankful for and love with all my heart! This is the most recent picture of the three of us taken at the pumpkin farm last month as we were picking out our Halloween pumpkins and this was as good as it was going to get since Our Sugar Babie won't be still for anything for too long...unless it involves jumping that is. I swear he has a spring in him!

As many of us join together with our families and dear friends to give thanks, I am trying to find the blessings in everyday living despite diabetes. Once diabetes became a member of our family, my life did stop for at least the first year it seemed. Gone were the fun carefree times during lunch and snack when Our Sugar Babie and myself would laugh, sing and read books during our meal and in walked checking blood sugars, counting carbs, checking ketones and weighing and measuring food. I keep telling myself that I can get back to that again...but I have changed and so has my babie for he isn't much of a babie anymore. But I want to find that "me" again...I think she is still there and I am determined to keep trying to find her.

Life does feel like it is passing us by sometimes with all the extra time that diabetes takes to try and manage on a day to day basis and sometimes I do say to myself "this isn't how life is suppose to be" and I know that is selfish of me and I have to remember to be thankful...for I still have my babie despite diabetes and many don't but sometimes to hear his cries while he is getting his injection or see him cautiously watch as the insulin is being drawn up in the syringe and trying to find a place to hide, tugs at my heart and when he wakes up in the middle of the night when we go into his room to check him, I know wouldn't be happening if diabetes wasn't there and I often wonder if he would be a better sleeper if diabetes wasn't sharing his pillow or if he would be a different boy all together if diabetes wasn't apart of him but these are things I will never know and maybe I shouldn't.

When I get overwhelmed by everything that is diabetes,
I have to remind myself that I have so much to be
Thankful for...
I am thankful to God for giving me Our Sugar Babie.
I am thankful I still have him to wrap my arms around.
I am thankful I still have him to kiss every minute of everyday.
I am thankful I still have his smile to look at.
I am thankful I still have his laugh to listen to.
I am thankful I still have his face to gaze upon and treasure.
I am thankful I still have his heart to nurture.
I am thankful I still have his tears to wipe.
I am thankful I still have his first conversation to hear.
And through it all we still have his diabetes to manage because he can't do it without us but I can still find the thankfulness in that too for diabetes was so close to taking his life that I am so thankful everyday that it didn't and hopefully this one fear of mine will never come true.

So, it's just the three of us and I hope and pray that "D" will never change that. I am so thankful to have these two blessings in my life and I am even more thankful to have been given the most important forever role of my life...to be Our Sugar Babie's Mommy. A title more precious than any other after my name.

Happy Thanksgiving 2011